Mhmm..

Haven't wrote anything in this in a while.
So Christmas was a good time. Got my guitar, not the pink one i wanted though, mines red, and nicer then the one I asked for so im not complainning. Hmm.. so breaks fun? Tonight milah and I hit up the pool hall and a bunch of creepy drunk old men were taking pictures of us and being huge creeps lol so we pealed. And I really don't feel good at the present time.
But anywho, about how I have nothing to say. ha well that sucks. I don't even know why I bothered to write this.

Alyson's Life List of Goals :

1) Guitar Lessons; Check.
2)Book permit test; Check.
3)Get a Job; Never.


Peace.

Cabaret.

Last night was stm's cab. It was so amazing! I had an awesome time and loved every minute of it!

Oh ya know..Stuff.

Im just so damn excited for school to end next week! I can't imagine I will go next after next wednesday. So im lookin at 5 more days until break!:) woo!. I can't wait till christmas to get all my new clothes! I love clothes so much. I can never have to many. Im getting so much for christmas I wont even be able to wear them all on the break probly lol. But oh well, i'll change more then once a day if I have too lol.

Anyways, so in my recent posts I may have sounded confused and such. But im not to sure I am anymore. I think i'v pretty well come to my decision of my prospective on life and such. So thats nice for a change.

C's Party. Heaty Scene.

more pics> www.piczo.com/alyson-leah

Dooley's.

Milah, Clarrissa,Sean, Jon & I pealed at lunch and went to Dooleys, to have probly one of the most funnest afternoons ever! Like it made me want to quit school and just hang out there all day lol. Anyways, unfortunatly, I have lost my touch at pool, and I think I lost like every game I played lol.

Heres some pics..

Anger; Forgivness; Forget

Today in CF, we discused anger and forgivness. Aparently my anger is visable to teachers, because Mrs.Steeves was like "Alyson I know your a hot-head, do you forgive people". I kinda thought she was just joking.. until she said she was seriouse because when she taught last year me I use to get angry in class. Which I informed her, if she thought that was bad..lol she doesn't know the half of it. But anyways, thats besides the point..

So after she asked me this, I never really thought about this before today. Now, I know I have an anger problem, like..atleast im willing to admit that. But I never knew I had a forgivness problem too. Now, when she asked me If I forgive people, or just let my anger eventualy fade out, I answered neither. Now, I mean like, if something happens between me and a person, I forgive them to the extent as im willing to put it aside and move on. But really, It still bothers me. There are people, conversations, and issues from YEARS ago, that I still remember, and although I got over it, It still bothers me. I mean like, if someone betrays your trust, your always gonna wonder "are they gonan do it again"? If someone lies to you numerous amounts of times, sooner or later, your not gonna believe a word that comes out of their mouth. I dunno, I guess with me it's just like, I can forgive, but I rarely ever forget. It's not my fault,I mean, Id love to forget all the shit in my past that doesn't really matter and probly causes half of my anger, but I just..cant. Maby someday, but I dunno. What ever.

See the spaces Inbetween; thats ME.

Why do I do this to myself? Can someone please tell me? I am so fucked up and confused. Like seriously, I don't know what im doing with my life. And I dont think I'll ever know. I just like, Don't understand anything right now. I am having all these thoughts and regrets and things of the sort. One day, im set on an opinion, and the next day im all "hm...I dunno man". Like it's stupid. But im super confused. Like, I want to be content with the opinion that makes me feel better, but how can you be content with someone you know is wrong? Most people like to do the right thing..Well see, thats where me & most people differ. I tend to enjoy doing what's wrong. Why? I have no idea. It's just who I am I guess.

Which brings me to my next topic. This year I have faced alot of thoughts based on "if a person can change". Once again, a portion of the year I believed a person could change, but also, I believed they couldnt. And now im at the stage where i'v believed, thought of and acted upon, both sides of everything. Now I just have to figure out which better suits me. What fun this will be? As if im not stressed out enough lol. FUCK. I have no idea, and I wish I didn't give a shit. But unfortunatly, I have to make a discision on who I am, because I only have a year and a half left in high school, then its out on my own. I don't like the whole, roller-coaster back&forth thing either. I think that just stresses me out even more. What ever I decide will be my final one because im really sick of all this shit, and im not gonna ruin my life over it.

Honors Award Thingy.

Hmm... :)

So, I use to really enjoy writing in this, and when I was bored, it didn't take to much time for me to come up with something to write about. But now, no matter how hard I try, I can't write anything. Iv lost my talent lol. Damnit. Oh well, Im sure I have better talents hidden somewhere under this thick skin. When I decide to reveal them, i'll let you know.

Mmm..Anyways, So life is just so over whelming these days. So much stuff going on. It's a good time though im enjoying it. I just don't even know where to begin with my life. Like jeeze.

It started snowing today, how delightful [lol yeah right, I hate winter so much]. I enjoy presents & no school though. :)

Hmm.. yeah so I guess theres seriously nothing to write about. Wow, my life is just THAT good that I can't complain in here like I usualy do. haha, well I sapose that's a good thing. Im not gonna complain that my lifes too good to complain about.
I have a academic exellence award thingy tomorrow night, so they'll probly be some pics up from that in the up coming week. Other then that, im just prayin for the weekend to get here faster.

Weekend Bitches.

Bonjour. Whats crackin? anywho.

Um, hmm let's see. Life's a good time. Im kinda fed up with alot of stuff though lately, and i'v been really stressed out. But, im join'ing boxing pretty damn soon. So that should be a good time.

So it's oficially december. Jayyyzz, hm.. like 23 days till Christmas? Pimp ass hoe! Im so pumped to get out of school, and get presents:) Wooot. AND je pense que 28 days till RB bitches! Aw hell yeah! I hate december, but love it at the same time! OOHHH MANN!!!im sOOOO excited! AHH!

So weekend what? Oh this weekend was a good time! Game, JJ's at like 10:30 last night? lol[let's all go to the bunks n shoot up]-mk lol, love you! , slept till 2:30 today(sleep well needed)..game, pool [kicked everyones ass]. OH LIFE, how I LOVE the<3.

MD,CS,AW

AW,MK

Assumptions?

So kids, its been a while since iv wrote a blog that has meaning lol. Just updates on my life and such. The goodtimes that it's been! Except for the drama-dram-dram. That is just too middle schoolish for me. But uh anyways, so with all the shit going on, something good finaly comes of it. And its startin to clear up (between most people anyways).

So the main thing I wanted to focus this blog on is, assumption. Girls tend to do it alot, they hear something, and assume its true. We all do it. It's like girls especaily, want to only hear the negative things, and give no room for the good stuff.

So, are rumors worth ruining friendships over? That seems to be a big issue going around right now. People are hearing something, then turning it into something even bigger, without hearing both sides. Well people there are 2 sides to everything you'll ever look at. Wether its a peice of paper, a person, a rumor, a wall.. anything. I don't know, I just think that like, come'on people, were in high school now. We can figure things out for ourselves, handle things ourselves, and figure out who we like and do not like ourselves. If you didn't have any friends in middle school and you want to try and start stuff now, do me a favor... Don't:) Or go back to middle school where people care about that kind of stuff.

Anyways, thanks (you know who you are) for not letting some lie by clearly someone who has nothing better to do with her time, ruin a friendship.

Life is a good time<3

hmm.. middle school anyone?

Oh life, you never seem to phase me.

Good friggin times.

Kv Boys.

Tonight was the randomest but funnest night ever!

Clarrissa and I hung out with Devin, Brent & Jon. We played pool and went bowling lol (Me and Clarrissa kicked ass in bowling by the way)

Girlie Night!

Hello there. So, as you may be able to tell, I'v gone from writing in this atleast once a day, to about once a week lol. I don't really care to much about it anymore, but tonight is something I will write about!

So anywho, tonight we decided to have a girlie night! We all came to my house and took pictures and ate pizza and watched Accepted. (grade 8 deja'vu) It was really fun! All us 6 girls haven't all hung out together in like, well years lol. Anyways, it was a really good time and im glad we did it!

Pics ft. Milah, Chelsea, Clarrissa, Melissa, Mary & myself.

Oh you know.

Yeah so,

I haven't written anything in a couple of days. And to tell you the truth I don't really have anything to say now ethier. My life isn't too much to write about anymore lol. It's a good time though, im enjoying it.

Life stuff.

hello, to anyone who still reads this. Anyways, life has been pretty good lately! Loving it once again. I feel more back to myself now, which is good. And, i just like to mention how much I love rap! lol, I'v taken a lil time away from listening to alot of it and replaced it with christian stuff, but I decided that I missed rap to much lol. It's just like, wow it makes me feel so pumped up and happy. I love it. Plus I also love the song Kidding Ourselves, by Stabilo. Such a good song. Music is important to me. It's how people express themselves. For me, it's how I escape myself. Loud music is a way for me to just, forget about everything, and just focus on the beat of a song.

So enough about that. Report cards today? Blah, who ever invented those suck lol. Im doin alright, ofcourse to my parents, not good enough. It's funny because now that the marks are in, and my lowest mark is a 76, I really find myself not caring about school once again. Until exams again atleast.

Anyways, so since iv kinda, not givin up, but slacked back on the whole hi-ho christian thing, my heads gotten so bad again. Like, back to the first few months it happened. I thought I was finaly starting to get better, aparently god's a little upset with me. That totaly sucks because I haven't been able to consentrate what so ever in school the past few days, and all I want to do is sleep. I constintly feel like I am getting wacked in the back of the head with a baseball bat. It's a very shitty feeling. But what ever I can't please everybody, so I mines well please myself first. And thats just being me, not changing who I am for god to approve of me. I thought he was sapose to love us for who we are? ...anyways, im watching ER and I don't feel so hot so im out. Peace.

Mhmm..

K so my last post regarding my midterms, I got my final one back today. And yes, you wouldn't believe what I go on it! another 76! That is 4 out of 5 of my midterms I'v gotten 76% on them. How weird is that! Stupid if ya ask me, but what ev I'll take it I guess.

Oh by the way! I almost forgot.. I went guitar shopping last night. Well, scouting I should say, for a guitar I want for christmas. Well, I walked into Music Stop, and fell inlove with the first one I saw!It was a pink acoustic! Oh baby! Pink! Like, did they know I was coming or what! lol Anyways heres a picture, (you have to click on it for some reason to see it)

Anywho, life is grand. No complaints thus far.

Were kidding ourselves; so what do you want from me?

Another long weekend, how I love those. I got to sleep in until 12:30 today! It was awesome, I was so drained from midterms and shit this week, so it felt good to regain myself. Oh speaking of midterms, I got ANOTHER 76%, on my history midterm. So thats 3 76%'s so far out of 4. I still have my english one to get back, if I get a 76 im gonna shit lol. Thats just to werid. Not bad though, best marks i'v ever gotten on exams, I usualy fail atleast one, and get like 60's on the rest lol. Goodtimes school is this year.. well not really I just try a bit harder.

Anyways, so I'v decided I just don't care anymore..like at all. I just, don't. It's not worth it, or anything. My heads starting to get better, and when it finaly is 100% good to go, I can get back to my life again. It's been to damn long I tell ya. I'll get my marks up as much as I can now, before I go back to care-free alyson. How I miss her lol. Luckly next semester is going to be easy so I won't have to try much anyways. Im just tired of people telling me who I should be and what I should do. Im in control of my own life, and it's about time I stop listening to other people, and start living for myself. It's not about making other people happy, it's about making me happy. And clearly, im not that happy. Or I wouldn't be writing this.

-alyson.lw

Are you doin her?

K, so yesterday, a bunch of woman kept coming to the class door for Mr.Sheppard. And jon's like, your tappin that aren't ya mr.shep? lol, So funniest thing happened today in chemistry class! Jon: Oh my old womans here, i'll brb!.. Mr.Shep: ARE YOU DOIN HER?!?! aah oh my god, the whole class started clapping lol. Gotta love cool teachers ha.

So yeah I just thought that was funny, I don't really have anything else to say. My life gets more bouring as the days pass by. I find myself having less and less thoughts, arguments, concerns, and cares. Maby thats a good thing, less concerns means less stress. Which I can totaly use right now. Anyways I have to get back to watching the OC! Loving it.


Update November 13th**

K so on friday , Mr.Shep goes, If your going to a party, Hydrogen is who you want to go with, HE'LL DO ANYTHING!!!

haha oh my, Mr.Shep is hilarious, goodtimes with his sexual jokes ha. Love em.

Midterms, woot!

Oh baby! I got my math midterm mark back today. My goal going into it was a 90, and coming out of it, I actuly got a 90! I am so beyond pumped. Im sorry to be all like, I got a 90! But if you know me at all, you may know that I sucked at math my whole life, and have just recently became good at it!So im just really happy that I actuly have goals in school now, because I never have before, caz I sucked at everything. I also got my Chem midterm mark back today. Oh jayys..lol. Um, im not 100% sure but I think my goal going into it was like, atleast passing, but I would have liked to get an 80? Maby it might have been a 70. Anywho, this wasn't so great lol, I only got a 76% on it. But it's better then a pass, lol by 16%, so i'll take it. And I had my history midterm today, which wasn't as bad as I had planed. Actuly I think it went fairely well. It would be nice to get like an 80 on it, considering I figured I was going to fail it. So I duno.

Anywho, Mom and I are headin out to Pizza Hut for some spaghetti for supper!:) Then im not sure but I may peal to youth group after. Okay, peace out.

Why didn't someone warn me, to save me from myself.

She walked away, couldn't say why she was leaving; she walked away, she left all she has believed in.

Empty reasons for my past, excuses do not hold; why didn't someone warn me, to save me from myself.

Okay, I don't think you can ever escape your past. I've come to that conclusion. For some reason, day after day, all I can think about is thing's of my past. Now, don't get me wrong, I focus and think about my future everyday aswell, but that is normal, you should be thinking about your future when your my age. But your past, now thats not so normal. Like, I know what's done is done, and you can't change things no matter how hard you try. I just wish once I realized that, it wouldn't of ever bothered me again. But unfortunatly it still does. And im not just talking about the whole like, drinking and stuff scene. Thats only a minior part to this, but even exchanged words of the past, faded friendships, past marks in school. You'd be surprized how much of the past I can recover as though it were just last week. Not all of it bad, but not all of it good either.

I just don't know when I will learn to leave all of this behind me. A person once told me, your past is who you are. Who you were is who you become. No matter how old you try and no matter how much you think you'v changed, in the end, deep down, your still the person you always use to be, and someone you will be that person again.

I wonder if thats true.. hmm..we will soon find out, wont we.

School; what a strange thing life is.

My chemistry midterm went better then planed today, but im still not sure of how I did. I would of liked to of gotten a 90 on it but I know that ain't happening. Simply a pass would be nice lol. I get it back tomorrow, along with my Math midterm. The mother of all stressers (math) im excited to get back. If I got a 90 of high 80 on that I will shit. And I have my last and final midterm tomorrow afternoon, Modern History! From what I hear it's brutal, but I just studied for an hour and a half, and Im only taking a break right now I plan on studien some more in a bit.

Oh school, how you spend 13 years of your life (if you don't fail), and then another what? 4-7, maby even more if your planning on being super rich. It's like, you spend the majority of your life that you are young and restless and sapose to be having fun, in school. And then you spend like 30 years working. Then when you finally have some time off and free to do what ever you want, your old and tired so you just spend it all doing nothing exciting. If you think about it, life is pretty shitty. It's a weird thing. Like, we were created to , go to school, work, rest, and die? Strange thing living is. Ofcourse there's some positive aspects to life, such as , family(for the most of us), friends, seeing the miraculous wonder's of the world, all that fun stuff. But it's just strange the reason's for as to why we are here.

Life is changing, people are fadeing.

Well, I don't have a whole lot to say. I had my english midterm today, it was rough and super long. It took me 2 periods and half my lunch hour to finsih it. I think I did well on it, I hope so anyways. I took like an attack in the middle of it because I was so hot and stressed out. But it's all good. Only 2 more left. I got my french midterm back today! aha, 76%...how sinful. But my goal was 70 so I suceeded my expectations lol. For not lookin at a book once I'd say that's pretty good. An 80 would have been nice but whatev it's only french. I have chemistry tomorrow though, blah! That should be fun...lol not. I hope I get an 80 on it though, that would be friggin nice.

Anyways, a bit off topic of school. But today was a strange day. It was like, a huge look back on the past, day. Someone brought up an old friend recently, so on the way to school (my 40 minute bus ride), I couldn't help but think of this person. A very good friend of mine from middle school, who I have barley spoken to or seen in years. I just can't help but think of how young and childish we all use to be, when I remeber the goodtimes we'v had. I remember most of them as if it were yesterday. When we didn't care about our appearance, or actions, and could care less what other people thought. A group of girls that were inseperable, when we called eachothers parents mom & dad, and their house our second home. Now look at us, we all barley even speak.

It's funny how people change like the weather, and fade away like seasons. Growing up you think you have all this time, you think nothing will ever change as long as you get it right the first time. It's as if, as long as everything is perfect now, nothing could tare that down in the future. But what people don't realize, especaily kids, is that.. nothing ever stays the same. Everything that has life will change. Like the color of leaves in autum, to a caterpiller into a butterfly.

But there are always some people that will remain in your life for a long time, you just needed to try a little extra harder with those people. You put more effort into making sure, although things did change, they wont fade. You can't stop change, but you can stop things from fadeing, for a while atleast.

Anyways, im not really sure the point to this, theres never really a point to anything I write. I can't explain half the thoughs and feelings I get. Thats why I write them down. I must try and get some last minute studien in, concidering I have yet to open my book and it's 10:45. (I excell in procrastination).lol if that's a word. Anyways, night.

Footprints in the sand.

I read this last night in the christian book store, more then once, it was like everywhere. I had heard of it before but not since i'v been a real christian so it never really apealled to me. But this time when I read it, I was really touched lol. I thought it was so cute and true. I had forgotten about it until tonight, as I was just sittin in my kitchen listening to the christian radio station, and they mentioned a band that use to be called "2 barefeet" and were named after footprints in the sand. And I was like oh hey that thing I remeber now. So I decided to put it on here, so those of you who have never read it, to do so. It is so true, and should relate to everyone.

God will walk with you hand in hand in your happiest days. But it's in your times of trouble, anguish and sorrow, that he will pick you up and carry you through them. If you trust in him, he will never leave you. Even though it may feel like he's not there, and you are alone, you are never alone.

Too busy to listen.

Well, my math midterm went very well. Im confident I got a good mark. I hope anyways. I have english monday, and I haven't started to study for that. I attempted but like, my ADD kicked in and I got distracted by other things caz I have very little attention spand. Tuesday and Wednesday I have Chemistry and History, so they shall be death also. I just can't wait until they are over, I hate tests caz I can't study,like I don't know how. My idea of studien is staying after school with a teacher and getting "help" in the subject. Like, it's the only way I will actuly do anything is if im being forced to one-on-one and theres no distractions. That's what I did for math, and it seems it has helped. So I plan on doing it for Chemistry and History as well.

Anyways, so I just realized today that I haven't been to youth in about a month. I forgot all about it, thats how busy i'v been. But atleast I go to church now eh? Well, twice anyways lol, but I plan on going tomaro night too. Hopefuly i'll make it out to youth on wednesday if im not to busy and remember lol. I haven't fallen from the whole god scene though, for anyone wondering. I'v just been, busy. Which isn't really a good excuse at all, caz god's never to busy for me, I know, it's just hard being human, you can only focus on so many things at once. God on the other and is intence and can focus on every single aspect to every person's life all at the same time! I dunno how he does it man! I wish I could do that with school, and friends and family, it's so rough. But it's all good.

So lately i'v been feeling kind of, different. I'v been having lot's of questions, with no answers. Question I feel I shouldn't even be asking, or thinking about. Questions that have answers no one will ever truely understand. My mother and I hit up the christian book store tonight, and I was listening to a CD by Krystal Meyers. Her songs are like, written directly to teenager strugeling in the more popular aspects in life.

"Rescue Me"
I'm carrying the weight of the world that sold me out
I'm running with my eyes closed
Hoping you don't see this doubt
I'm lost for wordsI'm at a loss to tell you what I need
I know there's something moreGod, help me to believe
And all this timeI thought the fight
The fight was only mine
I need to let you rescue me

"The Situation"
She’s finding love in the back of a car when is it too late
Have they gone too far
She’s having trouble drawing the line
But she knows she wants to feel beautiful
She struggles finding self-respect
She’ll wake up feeling regret
Her purity's been compromised
But she knows she wants to feel beautiful
He'll trade her heart
For a trophy
Put it on the shelf
So his friends can see
He has what it takes to get what he wants

Theres a bunch more too, just check em out if you want. Man like, I don't know what i'd do without music. I honestly probly get more out of music then talking to anyone. I find music really like the key to mylife. It's what keeps me together. I don't know what I would do without it. And I really liek christian music because instead of people just putting a bunch of words together to make it "sound good", they put a bunch of words together, that leave you thinking, (not about who brought sexy back) but thinking about your life. Christian music sends a positive message to you when you listen to it. I love it.

Now, the most negative thing I find myself strugeling with day after day, after day..is my past. Your past always follows you, they weren't lying when people told you that as a kid. It really doesn't ever leave you alone. Now, until tonight..I always thought of that as a bad thing, a negative aspect on my life. Something that always bothers me and brings me down. I didn't like who I was, and im so happy to of changed..BUT, theres always that link you have to your past that sometimes leaves you thinking, what if I was still that person? Would my life be alot easier then it is right now? Would I have the same grades as I do now? Would I have met some of the people I know now?..The answers to all these questions is probly not. Well, except for a probly on the life being easier then it is now. You know, is probly would be alot easier. It always use to be. But it's people who look for the easy way out of life that end up feeling empyt in the end. Because when everything is over and done with in there life, others are still experienceing more and more things because they have chosen to take the long way through life. Anywho, the point to why I finaly feel that my past isnt a negative aspect to my life, is because I heard this song by Krystal Meyers called "Lovely Traces". It explains how her past was haunting her, and although she wants to she can't forget it. But then she realizes that god even makes her bad choices in life for good reason, because it's what she had to go through to get to him.

"Lovely Traces"
I was consumed
By a life that I made
Destined to crash
Beat up and bruised
By the flashbacks of my own past
I tried to hide away
Till I heard you say
Lovely traces fall behind you
Turn around and you will see
Lovely Traces to remind you
Everything that you've been through
What it took to get you to me
All my mistakes
Regrettable choices I'd like to forget
But somehow you make
All that I wasted useful again
I lost my direction'
Cause I couldn't see
What a beautiful picture
You would complete in me

Midterms.

Bonjour. So this morning I had my first midterm, French. I must say it was kinda hard, but I had a low goal for it, im hopein for a 70 lol. Which fer french is terrible but I figure she'll just give me a bad mark over all anyways like all the other years because she hates me, so why bother? I never studied at all last night for it, so I just wong it. I'v pretty well wong everything my whole life. From sports-to-school. Kelsey tells me I should write a book called "How I wong my way through life, and when I realized it just wasn't gonna cut it anymore". The chapter where I realize it's not gonan cut it, is this year. With the viewing of universities and having to choose one and my career comeing up, and realizing I need like in the 90's admission average, Why settle for 80's when I can get 90's If I try? So starting for my midterm tomaro (math) i'v decided im aiming for a 90 on it. Math right now is my lowest mark and I have an 75 in it, gettin a 90 on my midterm would bring it up to like an 85, because it's worth 30%. I stayed after school for an hour and a half yesterday, and for an hour today, to go over everything. I got a blank copy of every test and quiz i'v done so far this year, and did them all tonight. I know I know more because I was able to do them all in the amount of time it took me to do one the first time, and still get them all right. So hopefuly I get a very good mark because Im not setteling for anything less. Im gonn abe so hard on my self the next year and a half im probly going to hate life, but gettin into a good school will be worth it. Then I will have another 7 years of being hard on myself, then it's all over and done with and I can finaly start my life! Woot, pumped for that one.

Oh and I just figured out today I have a 77% in english, not including my 10% classroom mark(which is like atleast 9/10) and my story analysis tha I actuly did. So hopefuly that will bring er up some! But im happy caz thats the best english mark iv had like, ever. I had a 65 last year, which totaly brought my average down and I only had like a 83 er something. But what ev, im redeeming myself this year lol. Okay well thats an update on some of my mark-age I got goin.

Man, tomorrow's Friday! This week went by super fast. Which you would think it would of been the opposite concidering we had a 4 day weekend last week but aparently not lol. Oh well im not complainning! Although im goin to be spending most of my weekend studien because I have English, Chemistry, and History next week. Jaays.. thats gonna be rough.

Anyways, im doing alright, The stress is off for the math midterm because im confident I know it all, hmm...mabey all i'v needed to do all along is study, and I wouldn't be so stressed out? lol theres an idea. Okay well I got to head out for a shower and more studying so all let you know how the test went later.

My future, im growing up!

Well today all the grade 11's(and 12's) went to the New Brunswicker to a job faire type deal. There was a bunch of universities and colages from like maritimes, ontario,main, and otheres. I myself just went mostly for the universities in the fredericton, nova scotia and new foundland. Im really looking into pyschology and sociology. Perferably Bachelor of Arts in pyschology, it's more one on one with people, Bachelor of science in pyschology is like working in labs studyin animal brains and stuff figuring out how they work. I'd rather work with people caz that intrests me more, a lab would get bouring. My three favorite universities that I came across were STU, Mount Alison, and Memorial. Theres probly otheres out there that are good too, but at the moment, theres are the ones im lookin into. Im so excited! It's like shopping, but for universities!

Oh my future is so exciting!:).. im growing up! It seems like yesterday I was just a little girl going trick-or-treating with my daddy, or off to my first day of school. I even remeber pre-school perfectly. I'v always been a social kid, loved meeting new people, and being on my own. I'v never been one to stay home, I love going out and getting away from the family. Thats why UNBSJ wasn't even an option for me lol. I don't want to stay home, I want to go out and live on my own, fend for myself, make my own rules. I can't believe im looking into universities guys!! I feel so grown up, it's kinda sad actuly, but exciting. I love being a kid though, but growing up will give me lots of new opertunities i'v never had, and mabey someday my own kids:) Aw yay!






Aw heres me and my
mother, my first birthday!













Me enjoying some cake
at my third birthday lol.
Attractive I know?













Well this is me now..
What a transformation!

You grow up so fast,
and you don't begin to
realize how important
each moment you spend
really is, until those moments
surpass you, and your left
with just the pictures and memories.

Happy Halloween!

HeyHeyHey, happy halloween everybody! Man today was so much fun! So, school was good, we had a halloween assembly and Me and Jon Baxter were in the pumpkin carving contest representing grade 11, and we won! :) 10$ movie money, which is pretty sweet for carving a pumpkin! Oh I also brought my chem mark up 7% in the past week and a half! So thats good.

I went to the hospital after school fer that nerologist, aparently my pain is still being caused by my concussion. I guess it's a really bad on because he said they usualy only last 3 weeks. He also said he doesn't know how much longer it could last, he said fer all he knows this could go on for another year, but in 6 weeks if it's still actin up he's givin me some medication to knock me right out lol. I have some now but im only aloud to use it when it's like unbearable pain.

Tonight Katelyn Kelsey and I went out trick or treating for like an hour an a half! We only did my street and kelsey's loop and got a whole pillow case. (there huge streets!) I was a pumpkin, katelyn was an angel, and kelsey was a clown. We got about 10 dirty looks or rude comments for being to old but oh well caz we got good comments to on our costumes:) haha goodtimes goodtimes. I have so much candy I am just loving the fuzzy peaches right now lol. Anyways, im out of stuff to rant about so all get back to you when my life gets more exciting!

Well, today was interesting. Last night I was up until like 1:30 doing my story analysis (which is done so poorly) but atleast I did it caz only like 5 people actuly did. On a happier note, one good thing happened in my life to releave some stress on school. I got a 98% on a huge math test I got back today! Best math mark iv ever gotten, and it brought my over all mark up so much because tests are worth alot, so im pretty pumped about that. Math is my worst subject this year, so goodtimes with that test.lol, except tomaro I now have a chemistry test that I totaly forgot about up until about an hour ago and I never brought my book home, lol so that should go over well :) .

Tomorrow's Halloween!!! Woooot. Im so excited! Our school is having an assembly and im sapose to be in it for the pumpkin carving contest with Jon Baxter! lol So if we actuly end up doing it that will be hilariouse. Im so pumped to trick-or-treat! Except I don't know what im gonna be yet, and I have that doctor appt. at 4 so it better not be rate long er all shit. Yay candy!!

So life, fail me now.

Alrighty, so this isn't really anythign new. The topic of my blog recently seems to be "Stress". I have alot of it. Right now, im trying to complete a short story analysis of 1000 words thats due tomaro, and I have no idea how in the hell to do it. I got my mother to write out the plot and stuff for me while I was at church, but I still don't know how to peice it all together. Never leave stuff like this to the last minute aparently. My lesson has been learned. Which also kind of sucks because Tuesday I have a history term paper due, which I have yet to finsih. That shall be interesting watching me try to hand that in on time also.

So anyways, this weekend was pretty good. I saw Marie-Antoinet, went shopping, went to Julies, hung out with Katie and Cait(who I haven't hung out with in forever!), went shopping again, went to katelyns halloween party, and tonight I went to church. Which brings me to my next topic.

So tonight I went to the Teen Mass at St.Rose Church once again. I went last week and really enjoyed it. Tonight the music wasn't AS good as last time but it was still good. But before I went to church, I was really stressed out about this analysis, so I went there all pissed off. Well we sang a song called "Healer" by Ten Shekel Shirt. As I sung this song for the first time, something came over me. The words really spoke to me, and it felt as if a burden had been lifted from my life. The words are as followed

Healer, heal me
Savior, save me
Maker, change me
Lover, Love me
Caz im so tired of living for
the kind of love
that only lasts for a while
The pain, the shame
Tear me up inside

So I fall on my knees
To get back on my feet again
And I cry out for you
Would you please speak to me

This song is so amazing. Something in it really touched me. Then during comunion, as I received Christ and knelt down in my peu, I started to pray for forgiveness and healing. Suddenly al my emotions of stress, love and pain rushed through my body, and I began to cry. Not noticable to anyone beside me, but tears started to run down my cheek. It was then I realized, I have been so over whelmed with stress lately, I haven't had anytime for God. And it was in this moment where I just gave all my stress up to god to hold, while I go on with my life. Now, I do believe I still have stress, im kinda stressed right now about this English thing, but I seem to care about it alot less then a few hours ago. I think i'v decided not to finish it. I can't handel all this right now, and I need time for me, school needs to just leave me alone right now before I go nuts. Which will happen soon because I have midterms starting Thursday until next Wednesday. But anyways, I just thought I'd share the song and stuff with you because I really enjoyed it, and I do believe Jesus is real and that he can speak to you through songs, people, verses, anything at all really. Just as long as you keep your eyes open and are willing to accept and receive what the Lord is trying to tell you, you will hear him.

R2.. what!?

Katelyn had her round2 party tonight lol. It was a halloween costume party so everyone was sapose to dress up! Most did except a few boys. I was a school girl, lol always wanted to be one of them. It was a pretty good time. Although my head is killin me now from the music and people yelling and shit, but it was fun. I don't really have much to say about it because a parties a party, but I have a bunch of pictures so I will post them!

For more pictures go to my site, photos;2006-2007 R2.

http://www.piczo.com/alyson-leah

Anxiety Attack?.

Hey, sorrie about the last post. I don't know what came over me. I was just over whelmed with all this stress abotu everything and I had an anxiety attack. I'v never had one and it was the worst experience of my life. My mom told me what was wrong with my because I have never had an attack before, and she asked me what I was so stressed out about, but I couldn't exactly tell her the whole story, so it wasn't much help. But then I went to Julie's after it to calm myself down and get my mind off of things. It helped a bit. I think I need to slow myself down. I obviously can't handel my life right now. So people please just try and make my life as least stressfull as possible before I go nuts lol. Anyways, just wanted to apologize for the last post. I just need a good sleep! Speaking of which, im gonna hit that up. Night

I need a friggin drink!

I have 2 extra days off for my weekend, and somehow im still not happy. I am so damn stressed, which I mentioned in my previous post, but like, I just don't know what to do with my life. I have never been this stressed out in my whole entire life. My head is bangin and I just wanna rip my brain out! I can't even explain the things going through my mind these days. Im so frustrated with certain people, and school, and myself. Ahhh jayz. I really just need something to relax my life...

Im beginning to go nuts. How long has it been? 6 months!! Ahhhh, I can't even believe my life. I hate this, im happy, but inside im going nuts. I really don't know how much longer I can keep this up, sorry. But I just don't know. Im not strong enough. Im my own greatest weakness. My whole life is my weakness. Im a sin, im sitting here listening to christian music, stareing at my closet... and for those who don't know, you can probly guess what's in my closet. And it aint the beuggy man! I could be unstressed in about 10 minuts. Aw hell, I don't know whats come over me, but im seriously having a break-down. I hope to god I don't do it, I really do, but.. It's only 8:28 and the night is young. I need to get out of here.

Throw away everything i'v been fighting for, to gain back my sainity? What a shittie trade.

I am so frustrated!!!

Alright, so i'v just decided that I can hold in this anymore. I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!!!!! Well, that feels nice to get out. Life is so frustrating right now. I don't even know what to do with my life. Like seriously, I don't mean to complain, but this is the only place I can do it, so im gonna lol. Everything is so confusing, and each day I find myself faceing situations that I never would have had to face, or atleast cared to notice I was facing them. Usualy these thing's wouldn't bother me, comments from people, events..because I wouldn't care. Partly because I agreed with the comments, or took part in the events. But this year I have an opinion, alot (and I stress the word "alot" very much) different from everyone else. Like, this is so hard..because im used to keeping my opinion to myself, which I still usualy do, but this time, its really getting to me. I just want to scream sometimes! I feel kinda alone right now. Like, I feel like I don't really have anyone to talk to and it's really hard. And school is to much for my life. I have essay's comeing out of my ass, and midterms next week, and im so stressed out about my life. I can never catch a break these days. AHHHH!!!! Im really going to blow up. And tonight I watched the girls basketball game/try out, and now im right depressed, because I want to play so bad. Ball is like my life, and it's one thing that makes me happy. And now due to my damn head (that wont seem to ever heal!) I can't play. FUUCCK! Theres another to add to my list of life ruining things, my head. Like seriously, does a concussion ever last this long? Caz it's pretty much just as bad as it was 6 months ago, except i'v learnt to deal with it now, and back then, I didn't know what the hell was going on, so I was in and out of the emergency every night. Like, i'v seriously never felt so much pain in my life then when I get these migrains. And im sick and dizzy constantly throughout my day. Ah it sucks! Like, noone even understands how horrible it makes my life. I can't due half the stuff I use to, and worst of all, im going to get fat! because I can't run or exercise er anything! Jeeeze, that would be a even more depressing story lol. But, I go to the nerologist on halloween, so hopefuly he can gimmie so answers, or drugs er something lol.

Anyways yeah, so theres my life right there. On the other hand, I am doing wicked in English, and i'v done all of my homework every night in chemistry since I lost 10% for not doing it. So im trying in school now. On the other hand, I only got like a 78% on my french test I got back today, which sucks but what ev my teach is a bitch anyways and tried to cheat me out of 2% but I caught her! She hates me man, one time she even told me off in grade 9. Oh well, she'll get hers someday. But overall I guess school's good, besides its so hecktic in the next 2 weeks!

Well, on a totaly different topic all together, I read alot of the bible last night. Well not alot, but like, more then I usualy do. I read a bunch of random stuff. Like Zechariah, which is about what is head for the world, the coming of god. And I finished Zephaniah, and read some of revelation, about what heaven is like. So it all kinda tied into like, when god comes to judge the living and the dead, and what to expect during and after. If you don't belive in this, wonderful. Don't read it. Fortunatly I do, so here we go! I believe Jesus is coming back sooner then we all may think. I think most of us think we have our whole lives ahead of us to change who we are, and what we do, and the way we live. Those people who believe theres a god, believe theres a heaven and a hell, believe you have to live without sin (try your best) inorder to please god, but they just think that because they are young, they have all the time in the world. They think that they will just change themselves when they grow up and have children, settle down in life. But ya know what, you may not have that much time! Who says we can't die tomorrow? Who say's god can't come next week? Who says we will have the abilitiy to change when we want to? If you live a certain life style for a long time, you begin to become attatched and comfortable in that life style. You feel safe, like you'v been okay for this long, so why not a little bit longer? Thats the road I was heading down, fortunatly for myself, I got off that road in time. Because I'll tell you right now, I was already starting to become comfortable and safe in that life style. It was what I was use to, and i'll tell you, I don't think it was ever as complicated as it is now. I didn't have a bunch of worries in the world, because I didn't have any beleifs, my attitude was, "what ever, what the hell, why the hell not, fuck it, what can it hurt, what they don't know can't hurt them, as long as we don't get caught...and even if it might be exciting" Like, life gets pretty comfortable when these are your thoughts and reactions to everything going on around you. Really, I mean, why would you want to change? Why would you want to give up a simple life, with about 7 answers to every question in life, and make things more complicated. Why would you want to stress out over things and have to think about everything alot harder, and put alot more time and effort into everything you do. Well, i'll tell you why I wanted to, because jesus never said "fuck it" when they put him on a cross for me. He never said, "what they don't know can't hurt them" or "what ever". He died for me, so that I could have the choice to think what I wanted, and the choice in a heaven or hell. All I have to do, is put a little more effort into it, and trust in him, and realize life isn't just about haveing a good time, and lots of laughs. And one day, I finaly opened my eyes from all the fake happiness, and realized there was alot more to life then what I had goin for me. And yeah, some of this may be causeing all my stress and frustration, but I think it is good. Because god is putting me to the test, can I stand alone for what I believe in? Can I fall astray from the crowd? Can I truly think about everything I do, think and say, before it's done. Even if im left all alone, with noone, noone at all, can I still keep myself together, and not fall apart? Well you know what, right now I feel like im going to fall apart, but I am not going to let this get the best of me. Im alot stronger then I look, so all you people out their who wanna make my life more stressful, bring it the hell on!

I'v got a story knowones told.

I'v got a story knowones told.
a secret within me, my heart seems to hold.
the reflection I see, fades deeper of me.
the look in my eyes, it seems to dispise,
the feelings within me, of who I seem to be,
and the frustrations between what you all expect of me.
I'v got a story knowones told.
this heart breaks for someone to hold.


yeah, so I just decided to write this. I haven't written anything in like 10 years, so im a lil rusty, but I kinda like it.

-alyson.lw

In the light.

So there's been something on my mind all day today. Last night Jess told me that the reason we haven't found a cure for cancer yet, was because the person who was sapose to discover the cure was aborded.

When she told me this I was like, holy shit! That totaly makes sence. Like, every child thats aborded by their mother, is a child that had a reason and a purpose to this world. So for all you gurls out their who may unexpectedly get prego, due the world a huge favor, and have the kid, wether you wanna keep it or not is up to you, but wether its born or not is sapose to be up to god.

Anywho, so I was thinking about last night, and I watched this skit at life teen, and it was about a girl dressed in white (symbolized pureity) who pushed god aside, and all these people dressed in black, with things such as "sex", "drugs & alcohol", "self hate" and a few others, painted on their shirts. They also had their hands covered in red paint. One by one they would go up to the girl and push her around, leaving paint staines on her white shirt. After she was covered in stains, she called out, JESUS!! And all the people in black fell to the ground, and jesus came up to her, and places a clean white sheet over her, to cover up her stains of sin. It was really awesome, and had alot of meaning to it. It symbolize's my life, and probly some of yours as well. So anyways, I got to thinking, and I remebered a dance I saw at camp medley a couple summer's ago. It was to the song "in the light" by DCtalk. It's awesome. Then I remebered, that one summer I got in on video. It's kinda dark and a bit hard to see, but it's pretty cool so check it out!

Church.

Tonight I went to a life teen mass at church. It was the first time (other then a wedding) I have been to church since the first week of August. Which is almost 3 months. Pretty sad concidering I go on about god all day to people, yet I haven't even been to church? But I go to youth group n stuff so that was good. But anyways, The only reason I hadn't been to church is because we left the one I had been going to for 2 years and really enjoyed. My family started going to St.Rose, which I find catholic churches kinda bouring. So I didn't wanna go. I figured I'd wait for an oppertunity to go to a fun church that I would get something out of. Well, it just so has it, that St.Rose, has a NET-Team with them until may. And this team has started teen mass''s. They have sweet music and stuff. It kinds remines me of Camp Medley. Which my old church was very much alike. After the mass they have this thing called life teen er something. And we go to St.Rose school and have kinda like a youth group. It's a fun time. Give's me one more night in my week that focus's on god. Which is awesome because I need all the worship I can get! For anyone who hasn't ever gone to like, a youth group or church for that matter, you really should. It's awesome and you just feel so good after. I love it! Anyway, I feel pretty pretty good right now knowing that I went to church finaly. I plan on going every sunday night too by the way lol. Anyways, it's late and I need to shower. School tomaro. Blah!

Dances.

I just remebered something interesting to talk about! yay for me.

So, there was this article in the paper yesterday that was all about dances. STM dances inperticular. They were calling all us girls at saint mac's that go to dances skanks. Like, is a news paper even aloud to say that? It was all like, if you can't go to dances without being a skank, then don't go at all and all this shit. Like, do they know what a skank is. Caz it's kinda hard to be one at a dance. You can be skimpy but a skank? I doubt theres a bunch of girls haven sex in the middle of the dance floor. It's saint mac's for god sakes. Then it was all, dirty dancing is dry sex. Like, how do they expect people to dance? It's not like the salsa er something? And were not in a mosh pit at a rock concert head bangin. Like comeon. At our first dance of the year they were giving girls t-shirts who were dressed inapropriately. But pretty well, if u werent wearing a turtle-neck, you were a tramp. Like a lil harsh? Mabbay.

So anything, stm made up all these rules for the last dance. More lights, intence dress code, you pretty well weren't aloud to dance with the opposite sex or the teachers would come separate you, and no sign-ins. And can we guess how many people went? Hm.. about 50? And theres usualy 700-800 people that go.

I dunno, I just think that people are over exadurating. Now parents are going to think there kids are huge sluts just because they wanna go to a dance. Thats stupid, like seirously.

First Impressions.

The weekend, how I love the weekend! Man this week has sucked the life right outta me. I'v never had so much work n stuff to do, and im getting sick so that sucks. Thank god next week is only a 3 day week. So kids, exactly 1 week till R2! How exciting lol, I need a costume though.

Yuppers, so last night I went to Steve's with Paul n Kels. lol oh my I made the best first impression ever lol. First, me n kelsey knocked on his door, n we saw his parents in the window(we didnt know they were his parents), but they weren't answering so we were like, mabey were at the wrong house.lol Then his dad comes to the window as we started walkin away n was looking at us lol, and we looked probly came off as huge creeps lol, then when I was in Steve's room I knocked a glass off his nightstand and broke it lol. All within the first 2 minutes we were huge creeps and had broken stuff lol. It was so funnie though we like died laughing when I broke the cup, haha I have never broken anything from someones house before ha. Then after me Paul n steve were eatin pizza n I droped a bunch on the floor lol. Let's just say I was haven a rough day haha. Goodtimes tho!

So, todays saterday. I have so much homework n shit to do. I need to finish my Term Paper on the french revolution. Then I have a huge story analysis to due, and chemistry, and a french speech. Jeeze! School's hurtin. So yeah, no idea what's going on tonight. I might just stay in caz I don't feel good and get some of this school work done. Anyways, I don't actuly have anything important to say. Just thought id write about my worst first impression ever lol Well actuly, i'v probly had worse, but this was just hilarious lol.

Peace.

Dateing Non Christians.

Okay so, I've decided today that im going to have to try alot harder with school because 70's and 80's just aren't gonna cut it unless I know that I tried my best and it's the best I can do. Ontop of that I finished my term paper in 2 and a half classes, so thats a work-load off my back. Im just so fed up with school though. Im sick and im tired and I feel like i have no time in my life for anything anymore. On top of that im having some boy issues lol.

So today in CF we talked about dating non-christian guys. Which may sort of be an issue im having lately. Like be honest, theres alot more non-christian boys out there then there are christians. So what are all us christian gurls sapose to do who don't luck out with one of the christian boys? Personaly I think that as long as the guy respects who you are and what you believe in, and doesn't try to change that, and isn't a negative aspect to your life, then it should be ok. But i'v been told im wrong by plenty of people today so I dunno. I don't know what to think anymore about anything. Some people agree, some people don't. The bible doesn't but back then they didn't even date, they just like got married. So that would kinda even make dateing wrong. Which makes almost every person in the world wrong. I dunno im really tired so im going to stop this conversation now I may continue it later.
But I'll leave you with a verse,
Micah 7:8 Though I have fallen I will rise. Though I sit in darkness the lord will be my light.

Doesn't this state that people make mistakes, and everyone deserves a second chance. And even though you may or may have sit or sat in darkness right now, theres still a chance to be forgivin and brought into the light. So maby all these non-christian boys need is a nice christian gurl to help put there life on track lol I dunno..anyways goodnight

School Sucks!.

So, im a failure at life lol. Somehow I managed to loose 10% in chemistry in 3 days. I know how a 70 in chem, a 73 in history, a 80-something in french, a 75ish in english, and god only knows in math. Grade 11 oficialy sucks. Iv never had lower then a 80% over all, and right now im lucky to have a 73. Im actuly trying and everything but my teachers this year just seem to be agaisnt me. I have a history term paper of like 1500 words, a french speech, a 7 page analysis, and a 3 page analysis, plus studien for 5 midterms, all within the next week and a half. Oh jays, I can't take this.. Im going to go out of my damn mind. I have no time for anything! Im only 16 my whole life can't consist of just school work. Thats why I quit my job, to have some free time, not to have no time to do school work. Jeeze. I can't even go to youth caz I have to do all my analysis's and term paper. Hopefuly thing's get easier next semester, concidering my afternoons consist of Theatre Arts and Visual Art. But there both grade 12 classes, so there not gonna just be a walk in the park either. Just easier then chemistry and history.

Oh and I asked my chem teacher the answer to that H2O question today. He said it's possible but you need (heat) like a flame, mixed with a few more little gasses, and a machine that would turn hydrogen into water when it reached the air.

Water.

Hmm, so today I was looking at my water bottle in english class, while I spaced out lol, and i started to think... have you ever wondered how water is clear, yet you can see it?

Also, on the topic of water..Hannah brought up the most randomest question, that probly know one in there right mind ever thought of lol. She asked, If H2O is hydrogen and oxygen and makes water, if you put hydrogen in a tap, when it came out (and reached the air), would it automaticly turn into water? ..lol like seriously, who asks that? ha but its a VERY good point. I wonder, that woul dbe cool to see through like, a see-through tap ha. Does anyone know the answer to this?

Vision is believing, then seeing; not seeing and then believing. Most people need to see in oder to believe, but if you don't believe, how are you sapose to ever see?

Ugh Sick.

Ugh, so i'v been rate sick today. It all started this morning with my head really bothering me again. Then at lunch I thought I was gonna take a seizure or something, and I was just rate sick to my stomac and felt rate dizzy. Then my thorat and ear stared to hurt, and it's all down hill from there lol. I came home and slept for an hour and a half, which was nice. But now im still sick, haven't even started my homework, and im in no mood to go to school tomorrow. Jeeze, school is a huge hassel. I hate being sick, It only ever happens with the changes of season. But when it does it sucks. And this is bad timing to miss school, because midterms are like next week. Ew.

On a better note, my nerologist appt. got moved to halloween instead of december, so I can figure out what the hell is wrong with me sooner. Which will be nice.. I think.

Yeah, notice my blogs suck lately? Me too. I never have anything to write about anymore. Except for like, school and being sick, which are the 2 most popular topics in my life right now lol. Anyways, so thats my day, Im watching justice (good show), so im gonna go. Peace.

-alyson.lw

Kid Zone.

Kid Zone is amazing. I volunteered at it tonight for the first time, and it was an awesome experience. There was bus loads of kids from all over Saint John. Most of the kids have no diretion in their lives from their parents, so to come to kidzone and be shown love and the way of jesus is amazing experience for them. To see them all running in off the bus's with smiles on their face's and the music blasting and bubles floatin all over the place and lights going and it was just awesome. It really hit me when I saw all of these girls and boys running in. I just thought to my self, how amazing is god? Like seriously, how awesome is god to gather 400 kids who need Jesus the most, and bring them into a atmosphere that is life changing.

So, as all the kids were jumping up and down singing, I noticed this little girl just sittin down, not really looking like she was having fun. So I went over and sat with her, and asked her why she wasn't dancing? She said it was just to loud for her. Then she told me her name and asked me mine. She told me she had come to kiszone before, lol and I told her I was a new commer. She was so cute, Anyways, so the next songs and stuff came on and I asked her if she would stand up and dance with me. And she did, she was jumping and smiling and it was just so awesome.

I don't know how many of the liek 400 children were touched by this, but what I do know, Is my heart was touched, not only for jesus but for the children also. And all the people who made this night possible and dedicate 2 saterday nights a month to these kids.

Theres another Kid-zone next Sunday night so if anyone wants to go help out, ask me for the deats lol.

Anyways, so after kidzone some of us from youth group went out to tim's for a chat about the night. Unfortunatly I only stayed for abit because I had other plans but it was nice none the less. After Tim's I went to Teresa's with Paul and Steve(my date lol). We watched the movie American Haunting. Rate the weird movie, don't recomend it lol. Anyways, it was a fun night over all and I enjoyed myself lol. Goodtimes this weekend was. Now tomorrow's all about the Chemistry lab and the relaxing & preparation for the school week.
Goodnight!










-alyson.lw

Friday Night.

School week is finaly over! Thank God, im so tired and sick. Jeeze! Anyways, so tonight like 18 er 19 of us went to jj's (Jungel Jim's) for supper. It was really fun to all hang out together because we never ALL do at the same time, so that was a really good time. I enjoyed it lol, we got some hot pics, which I will put a few up when I d/l them onto my comp. Anyways, so after this , we all chilled uptown for a bit, then everyone but me and kelsey went to the dance (which I new was gonna be hurtin) me and kels stayed uptown and a bunch of old creepy men were trying to talk to us lol.. so after about 10 minits maby, everyone pealed from the dance (after paying 6$) and we all headed over lower to the bunkers party. There wasn't to many people there when we arrived, but after like 20 mins er show a shit load of people started showing up. I guess it was like the biggest party they'v had down there. (hbd-Brad!) I seen a bunch of people there who I haven't seen in a while, like Steeve! I love Steeve me and him are tight lol. It was fun but I was freezing and all the smoke n shit was gettin to me, so we pealed after a while. It was a fun night over-all though. Better then what I had planed lol.


Tomorrow is Saterday and im so excited! I am soo sleeping in. Then I have KZ tomrrow night which should be interesting. Anyways, im off to bed, night

-alyson.lw