Friday, August 29, 2008
Goodbye
Well well well, its been along time. My last post I was worried about graduation being 3 months away, and this one, university is ONE FLIPPIN day away. Yes thats right, I leave for university tomorrow morning. Must be nice? Nah, thats what I thought until I had to say goodbye to everyone and my room was nothing but boxes. and I finally realized Im not gonna survive without my daddy doing everything for me:(. Its a sad hard life sometimes ya know.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Does God Answer All Prayers?
Does God answer prayer? Some, but not all? Sometimes, but not all the time? Or does God always answer prayer and it's just that sometimes God says no. Could prayer be bigger than God listening and answering? Maybe we need a fresh perspective on how we approach the things in life that compel us to pray.
"Do not pray to God to feed the hungry; when you have plenty of food."
This was the strongest quote I have ever heard in my entire life. My christian fellowship class watched a Nooma video this past week that was all about forgiveness, and god answering prayers. At the start of the video you see nurses in a hospital shaking their head at a man who is hooked up to machines who appears to be unconscience. Later on you see this young girl also in the hospital, who i believe had lost someone in a car accident. It shows the accident scene, an the girl getting takin away in a stretcher, watching her loved one die. We then are shown that the man in the hospital at the beginning of the video was the man who caused the accident, who I believe may have been drinking and driving. At the end of the video, the girl struggles to walk into another hospital room, which is the man's, and she goes and sits beside him and holds his hand, so that he is not alone. Although this man killed someone she loved, and had put her in the hospital, she still forgave him, and went so that he would not be alone. This short video was so powerful It almost made me cry. It opened my eyes and really spoke to me. All through out it someone was talking about prayer and forgivness and if God always answers prayers. Another thing he said was that, God always answers us, it just sometimes his answer might be no. And also, sometimes, the answer to your prayers, for other people, may be yourself. Do not ask God for something, or to help someone, if you yourself have the power to help that person, or make a difference in their lives. Sometimes people just think if they ask God then their good people, but it is stupid to pray to God that someone will finally seak and find him, if you have the power to try and bring that person to God. It is stupid to ask god to feed someone hungry, if you have more then enough food.
This video really made me open my eyes to life and realize alot of what I, myself am missing out on. The message I am choosing not to see. The things I pray that God will heal, when I have the abilitiy to take the broken and peice it back together. I challange everyone who reads this blog, to take that extra step after prayer, and try to find it in yourself to be the answer to your own prayer. Many people are waiting to be helped, lifted up, and healed, some just need someone to love and talk to them. Could you be that person?
www.nooma.ca
"Do not pray to God to feed the hungry; when you have plenty of food."
This was the strongest quote I have ever heard in my entire life. My christian fellowship class watched a Nooma video this past week that was all about forgiveness, and god answering prayers. At the start of the video you see nurses in a hospital shaking their head at a man who is hooked up to machines who appears to be unconscience. Later on you see this young girl also in the hospital, who i believe had lost someone in a car accident. It shows the accident scene, an the girl getting takin away in a stretcher, watching her loved one die. We then are shown that the man in the hospital at the beginning of the video was the man who caused the accident, who I believe may have been drinking and driving. At the end of the video, the girl struggles to walk into another hospital room, which is the man's, and she goes and sits beside him and holds his hand, so that he is not alone. Although this man killed someone she loved, and had put her in the hospital, she still forgave him, and went so that he would not be alone. This short video was so powerful It almost made me cry. It opened my eyes and really spoke to me. All through out it someone was talking about prayer and forgivness and if God always answers prayers. Another thing he said was that, God always answers us, it just sometimes his answer might be no. And also, sometimes, the answer to your prayers, for other people, may be yourself. Do not ask God for something, or to help someone, if you yourself have the power to help that person, or make a difference in their lives. Sometimes people just think if they ask God then their good people, but it is stupid to pray to God that someone will finally seak and find him, if you have the power to try and bring that person to God. It is stupid to ask god to feed someone hungry, if you have more then enough food.
This video really made me open my eyes to life and realize alot of what I, myself am missing out on. The message I am choosing not to see. The things I pray that God will heal, when I have the abilitiy to take the broken and peice it back together. I challange everyone who reads this blog, to take that extra step after prayer, and try to find it in yourself to be the answer to your own prayer. Many people are waiting to be helped, lifted up, and healed, some just need someone to love and talk to them. Could you be that person?
www.nooma.ca
Sunday, March 09, 2008
The countdown begins; to fade the past, and strengthen the future.
Our mind is the battlefield for sin-
I haven't writtin in this for a while, and im not exactly sure why. Maby it's because I was too busy trying to figure out my life. Maby it's because im too busy with school to find time to write, or even care about what's going on with me these days. Maby it's because I thought I finally had everything figured out, to find.. I was very far from it. Maby it's because I was trying to pretend that everything was fine, and that I was okay.
There are plenty of reasons for my abence in writting, although im not sure if there even reasons anymore.. or just plain old excuses. I seem to be full of those lately, I have an excuse for everything I do, and everytime I screw up. I really dont think they are valid reasons for anything but as long as people keep believing them im gonna keep useing em.
University is finally settled, nursing it is. And closer to home then I had planned too. But not too close, just close enough. Im starting to realize the reality of graduating and leaving. Starting a new life, but trying not to forget the old. Living on my own, trying to survive on everything my parents have tried to teach me over the years, but never knew I was listening. The truth is, im almost always listening, its just a matter of what I decide to do to prove I was listening. I have selective listening I think. I choose what I think is importance to my life, and listen to what is being said. I think about it, I just don't admit its existance and ware abouts in my mind. Anyways, back to graduation. It use to seem so far away, now it is less then 3 months. Where does the time go? Im not sure if im ready to say goodbye yet. I thought I was, but I really don't know if I am. I mean, some of my friends are goin to be at the school next door, and some even at mine, BUT for the ones who aren't, the ones who are staying here, or going even farther away in the opposite direction, people who I have known my entire life and have been best friends with... 5 an a half hours is really far you know. Its not as far as I was planning on going (17hrs), but for my best friend to be 5 and a half hours away from me, really..really sucks. And my family, I know I say I can't wait to get out and leave them, and a little over an hour distance is close enough, but really. How often am I really going to be coming home? My guess is not often, Im paying to stay away so I minse well. And then my plans for travel in my second or third year to study in another country.. well then im really going to be gone. I dunno, I guess it sounded alot easier a while back, when I knew I had lots of time. Now the clock is tickin, and im not so sure its gonna be that easy. I guess I just know how it feels to loose friends to university and loose touch and watch a friendship fade.. and how hard it is and how weird it feels. And these people weren't my best friends, these people weren't the people I tell everything too, these people weren't the people who saw me cry, they weren't the people who made me who I am, and who mean everything to me. Leaving those people is going to be really hard. The hardest thing i'll ever have to do probably.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
Let Your Mess Become Your Message
I read a book of daily devotions once called "A New Year, A New Me". The following messages I got from that book because I found they really spoke to me towards my life.
"I encourage people to let go of their past, but never to run from it. The only way to gain vistory over the pain of our past is to let God walk us back through that doorway of pain and into victory. No one can achieve victory for us; we have to work out our own salvation. Paul explained this truth in his letter to the Philipian chuch saying : (Philippians 2:12-13)
We have to let God take us through things and let Him work in us so our mess becomes our message. Difficult things that we have endured in our past prepare us for God's blessings in our future."
-Have you ever wondered why you can never seem to let go of your past? Why difficult struggles, or experiences you went through, you can never seem to forget? Have you ever just wanted something to go away so much, and you really convinced yourself that you have forgivin what ever caused you that pain, but it never seems to fade? Somethings in life God wants you to let go of and forget, and He will make those things known to you, and will allow you to let go and forget. But sometimes its the HARDEST moments in your life where you've felt asshamed, failure, defeat.. that you just can't seem to know matter how hard you try- to forget them. Its these things that God wants you to remember because it's in these things that God knows you can use to your advantage. Failure leads to success, and mistakes lead to perfection. God is useing these very hard times to show you something- perhaps to show you "look, you made it through this, you can make it through anything", or maby even to remind you that the knowledge of your mistakes made, could help be known and become awear to certain people around you, so that they too don't make the same mistakes you did. The greatest story of a person is their testimony. It is in that moment that they realize, life was not promised to be easy, fun, or fair. It was not promises to be full of wealth and envy. It was just promised that If you live according to god, to serve him, to minister to others what you know and have experienced- that you would have eternal life.
"I encourage people to let go of their past, but never to run from it. The only way to gain vistory over the pain of our past is to let God walk us back through that doorway of pain and into victory. No one can achieve victory for us; we have to work out our own salvation. Paul explained this truth in his letter to the Philipian chuch saying : (Philippians 2:12-13)
We have to let God take us through things and let Him work in us so our mess becomes our message. Difficult things that we have endured in our past prepare us for God's blessings in our future."
-Have you ever wondered why you can never seem to let go of your past? Why difficult struggles, or experiences you went through, you can never seem to forget? Have you ever just wanted something to go away so much, and you really convinced yourself that you have forgivin what ever caused you that pain, but it never seems to fade? Somethings in life God wants you to let go of and forget, and He will make those things known to you, and will allow you to let go and forget. But sometimes its the HARDEST moments in your life where you've felt asshamed, failure, defeat.. that you just can't seem to know matter how hard you try- to forget them. Its these things that God wants you to remember because it's in these things that God knows you can use to your advantage. Failure leads to success, and mistakes lead to perfection. God is useing these very hard times to show you something- perhaps to show you "look, you made it through this, you can make it through anything", or maby even to remind you that the knowledge of your mistakes made, could help be known and become awear to certain people around you, so that they too don't make the same mistakes you did. The greatest story of a person is their testimony. It is in that moment that they realize, life was not promised to be easy, fun, or fair. It was not promises to be full of wealth and envy. It was just promised that If you live according to god, to serve him, to minister to others what you know and have experienced- that you would have eternal life.
His Glory Is In Our Weakness
1 Corinthians 1:27-29
"But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world to despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him."
The Bible says that God chooses the weak and foolish people of the world in order to confound the wise. People always think that they are not good enough. They think that in order to survive, and to matter in the world, is to be strong and wise. The strong and wise people are the people who consistently boast in their strength and hide from their weaknesses. But the people who embrace their weakness, are the people God uses.
"But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world to despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him."
The Bible says that God chooses the weak and foolish people of the world in order to confound the wise. People always think that they are not good enough. They think that in order to survive, and to matter in the world, is to be strong and wise. The strong and wise people are the people who consistently boast in their strength and hide from their weaknesses. But the people who embrace their weakness, are the people God uses.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Our Hearts Hero.
It’s times like these when I fall so hard
That I wonder now how I ever got this far.
So many failures fill my mind
And then history keeps reminding me
Of these scars.
That I wonder now how I ever got this far.
So many failures fill my mind
And then history keeps reminding me
Of these scars.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
When your scars tell the story of your broken heart.
Well well well, hello self. I haven't comfirmed my hate for life with myself in quite sometime now. So I thought I'd fill you in self.
Exxammmsss... suck. I swear there enough to ruin a persons life sometimes. Especially when, for one exam you don't even have to show up for and you would still get a better mark then half the class. And the other, you can't even pass unless you pull some kind of merical out of your ass and get a 73. AND even worse, there on the same day! jeeze. Oh well, wish me luck caz i'll be needin it.
Anyways, other then that; life is pretty good I sapose. Aside from exams, and university stuff, and the stress that comes with it, life is pretty good. I can't really complain. Today was one of my better days, finally all the waiting for someone to grow a backbone, to stick up for themself, to finally move on and let go, finally that person learnt how it feels to walk away. But not only to walk away, but to keep on walking and not look back, wether or not the person your leaving behind, is drowning in an ocean of tears and can't be helped. Wether or not that person is being slowly washed away by the things she finds strength in. Wether that person's scars start to tell the story of their broken heart and they bleed just to know their alive. It's time you let that person learn on their own, and fend for themselves..even if that person's worst enimie, is exactly who there about to become. It's better this way. After all, you can't always hold on forever. So this is where i'll be okay, when your gone.
Exxammmsss... suck. I swear there enough to ruin a persons life sometimes. Especially when, for one exam you don't even have to show up for and you would still get a better mark then half the class. And the other, you can't even pass unless you pull some kind of merical out of your ass and get a 73. AND even worse, there on the same day! jeeze. Oh well, wish me luck caz i'll be needin it.
Anyways, other then that; life is pretty good I sapose. Aside from exams, and university stuff, and the stress that comes with it, life is pretty good. I can't really complain. Today was one of my better days, finally all the waiting for someone to grow a backbone, to stick up for themself, to finally move on and let go, finally that person learnt how it feels to walk away. But not only to walk away, but to keep on walking and not look back, wether or not the person your leaving behind, is drowning in an ocean of tears and can't be helped. Wether or not that person is being slowly washed away by the things she finds strength in. Wether that person's scars start to tell the story of their broken heart and they bleed just to know their alive. It's time you let that person learn on their own, and fend for themselves..even if that person's worst enimie, is exactly who there about to become. It's better this way. After all, you can't always hold on forever. So this is where i'll be okay, when your gone.
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