Tempting, but no.

I have an issue, i know i know.. when dont i have issues? But this issue is a serious one. My newest issue that I started caring about is sin. Iv always has issues to it but in the last year i havent paid much attention to the fact. However, lately im taking it into consideration.

Have you ever felt like, when you dont pay attention to something and it isnt on your mind, it doesn't seem to come up in your life as often as if you were worried about it? Maybe its just the fact that you dont care and are paying no attention to notice that its there. All i know is that, the past year I havent been faced with such difficult situations as i am faced with everytime i decide to give my life to god, again. Perhaps its the fact that the problems that faced you with sin when you didn't care, are still there when you decide you do. Personally i think its the work of saintan. When he knows your his and you dont care about God then he realizes he doesn't have to try as hard to shove sin in your face because you'll fall for even the littlest temptations. When he notices your trying to find your way back to God he freaks out and tries to throw all your weaknessess at you at once. He'll do anything and everything to rip you away from gods arms. Im currently experiencing it, and i hate everything about it. Im starting to try and be stronger but truth be told; its hard and it sucks.

"And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell"

Matthew 5:30 talks about how, if there is something in your life that is causing you to sin, you need to cut it out of your life right away. Well, sure that sounds like not a big deal and the right thing to do, but how easy is it? How easy is it to just cut people you care about out of your life? Some who have been there longer then you can even remember. I just don't see how that is possible.

Numbers 32:23 "But if you fail to do this, you will be sinning against the LORD; and you may be sure that your sin will find you out"